Day 6- Roller Coaster

(Day 22 on chantix,stop smoking now, 6 days free of smoking. gained 15 pounds.) I drove my mom back to Boston Logan yesterday for her flight home. We visited my brothers grave and put up a wreath. It was rainy and foggy the entire trip there and back. I get home and settle in and then I ended up getting upset at my wife, I was like a hair trigger. So we had an argument I was wanting to watch monday night football so I gave our baby daughter a bath (trying to be helpful) and then that wasnt enough or something I am sure I am just a wreck right now. I had some major craves last night I felt like running off to get some cigs. I did not sleep all too well either. I am not having fun on the roller coaster,Herbal cigarettes, and neither is my family. I feel like giving in sometimes (smoking)so that there can be peace on earth But I was suffering from smoking so much too. Its like a rock and a hard place.