out of the blue.. a test

Yesterday my BF went out of town and I was home alone. I came back from work, sat down at the computer and noticed he'd left a single cigarette on the table. I've had cigarettes in the house for 2 months, no problem. But this time, that roll of paper had the weirdest effect on me. For a moment, just for a flash, the old junkie spoke. It stood me up and walked me to the cigarette. I picked it up,quit smoking now, smelled it, had my 'romantic' moment then simply shredded it up. There was never a danger of me quitting my quit, I am still confident of that, but that old (fake) fantasy, that old junkie feeling, raised its head for a moment.My brain is forgetting the reality of smoking and it's up to me to remind it in moments like that.We always have the choice, it's what we do with that choice that counts.Funny how those mind games remain and appear out of the blue,smoking cessation, even when we know we are quit for good.