Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Quit timeline 4-6 months

Okay, these were the tricky days. I'm not a newbie anymore, I'm not an ole pharte yet,Herbal cigarettes, I am a tweenie. the craves weren't around constantly like the first three months, and so some sense of normalcy returned for me. But then all of a sudden BAM - a crave would hit me across the side of the head and I would think, where the f did THAT come from?!? I thought it wasn't suppose to be like that anymore!!!!! I had quit the nic gum at three months, so I was on my own now (so to speak, I still lived at this board) and was doing good. But it's the complacency that's a quit killer for me, and when I let my guard down, boy those junkie thoughts sure did creep back in. I was arguing with myself (which is pretty funny when you have enough time to look back on it) and me, myself, and I had some doozies, too. I knew though that I wanted this really badly, I wanted to keep the freedom of not smoking,stop smoking, of being free of addiction, of not letting anything control me anymore. NOT ONE PUFF was the last word in all those arguments. How could I argue with that simplicity? I couldn't. So I didn't. The junkie side of thinking always lost in the end, and everytime I'd get through one of those increasingly infrequent episode of craving, the stronger I got. But some of them.... MAN! I never wanted to come here and post I puffed, so accountablility to the people of this board was a great deterrent for me.Now let me say around six months was slippery. I'm feeling good, I'm quit, I'm half golden, and now I'm thinking back "eh, that wasn't THAT hard" - OH MY GOD! Yes it was! And it took a lot to get to that six month point - I couldnt believe I had days I actually thought that it wasn't so difficult! but again, education and this board came into play for me. NOT ONE PUFF - it was that simple, not always so easy.I could drink coffee and alcohol again, I could talk on the phone longer, I was exercising, and not every conscious thought was filled with keeping the quit. Things were looking up!

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