A quick hello while the pain meds last

Hello all my good friends, well...I'm shot full of demerol and have about six hydrocodones in me, I can sit here at least while my wife makes sure I don't fall over. Boy..did I get a bit of irony at the doctors. I've been coughing up blood, a bunch of it. Doctors right away upon seeing my smoking history said it's gotta be cancer related. Well, I made it over that hurdle, it's not cancer. It is something that is putting my past smoking habit into an ironic twist. Seems that my lungs are now suddenly filling with cysts..the same cysts that can survive on my kidneys. The doctors were stumped..why suddenly have the cysts made the jump to my lungs? What have I done differently in the last few months that the made the cysts say "Oh..that area is looking healthier now...let's spread that direction..." No doctor is prepared to tell you that even though quitting smoking is beneficial in 3,000 different other ways...apparently in unique cases it can hurt you. Yes...the tissue inside, and outside my lungs,stop smoking, now healing daily is the equivalent of a nursery for these cysts. All the blood I've been coughing up is busted cysts in my lungs. Apparently the lung cysts were being destroyed before they could form all these years by the constant bombardment of smoke on them. I do have a unique insight however..I have lung cancer grade pain without the fatal aspect. The cysts in me will bust and go away at some point, but the pain beforehand is uhholy in nature. Please, everyone hang onto your quits..the pain is like you'd imagine hell to be like.. Before anyone asks...no, I just don't want to smoke anymore. I don't think I can now even if I wanted too, my lungs feel like the worst pneumonia I've ever had. Well, don't know when I'll be back. To everyone who is just starting out quitting...don't get discouraged by this, my situation is unique unto itself. If you are healthy otherwise, quitting is the best thing you can do. Well, I won't be back as often, I'm really weak now from all the coughing and blood loss. I hope everyone has a great christmas, thanks for being there when I needed you, I'll hold onto that warm feeling as I'm trying to fight this.