Day 33

Yesterday,quit smoking now, I was feeling pretty awesome about this quitting thing. Today, I'm still quit; but it has been a very tough afternoon and evening. Some major mind games going on with the nicodemon. He sure wants me to cave. I don't intend to do that; not a single one. I thought that most of the real emotional stuff would be behind me by now; but all I've wanted to do this afternoon and evening is cry and I did a little. I know that I've been extremely grouchy this afternoon because my husband told me so. I did apologize for being so grouchy but didn't offer him any explanation. Why shoud I? He hasn't said a single thing about my quitting. Some acknowlegement would be nice before he leaves again for 2 weeks. I thought I was getting better at controlling my emotions but apparently I'm not.Anyway, I guess I'm through venting.1month, 1 day, 22 hours,stop smoking, 45 min. and 11seconds without a smoke; 658 cigs. not smoked; saving $123.23 and life saved 2days, 6 hours, and 50 min.